I seriously don’t know why I bother.
So today I found out that I got an A on my first o chem exam (one of the highest grades at that) and so of course I was excited to tell my parents. And so I get home and my dad was the only one home so I told him the good news and all he asks is how my car is running (because it’s been having problems) and he starts yelling at me because apparently “drive around everywhere too much” when in reality, the only places I drive to are school and church. And I mentioned how it was weird how he didn’t even congratulate me or even seem to notice that I told him about my A and he starts yelling at me saying stupid things like “Oh so you want a fucking party? How am I supposed to congratulate you when all I can worry about is your car?”
Seriously, I don’t even know why I bothered. He’s never congratulated me on anything before, so I shouldn’t have expected anything at all. Even when I got a 4.0 on my last semester, all he said was “cool.” I mean, really? I know that I don’t need to be congratulated for every little “A” or whatever, but I’ve been seriously trying to find some sort of common ground with my dad that I thought if he knew I was doing well in school, then he’d at least have that satisfaction. But now that I know he doesn’t really care, I’m just going to stop. Everything I’ve done, everything I’m doing, and everything I’ll continue to do is for my benefit, with my mom in mind, and for the glory of God. And that’s all I need to push me through.
